
Leaving Vancouver is incredibly bittersweet for me. Don't get me wrong- I love Toronto more than I ever thought I would, and I am really looking forward to going back, moving into my new place and catching up with my old friends.
The problem is no matter how hard I try, I cannot be in two places at once. I've tried to invent a teleporter, well, as much as someone who didn't take physics in high school can try that, but to no avail.
I'll miss my family- and even though I didn't get to Calgary as much as I would have liked- knowing I could go whenever I wanted was really nice. Ditto skiing, I'll miss looking at the mountains and skiing on them.
There are very few moments of natural beauty in Toronto. On a sunny day, Vancouver is beautiful. On a rainy day- or say 40 of them in a row- living here is hard. And having the kind of life I like in Vancouver is harder than in Toronto- spontaneous dance parties don't just happen here- you have to make them happen: you have to double confirm everyone, hope for good weather, and expect less than half the people you invited will show up.
You don't discover great restaurants, you have to seek them out. You don't fall into a great group of friends you have to gather them.
It's funny that in a place where almost everything grows wild, you have to carefully cultivate so much here.
When I first got to Vancouver- I wrote a list of things I wanted to do: things like sailing, kayaking, Tofino, Salt Spring, Bowen Island, eagle counting, the opera, zulu records, skating lessons (so I can learn to skate backwards but since there is no outdoor ice here-it may have been a bad idea...)
And here's what I did do:
Spent time with Rosa's son Andrew- the sweetest baby in the West, skied with my step dad and my ski friends, traveled to East Africa and the Dominican Republic, went to Prince Rupert three times, where I would never have gone once if it weren't for my job, spent a lot of time with my parents, and said goodbye to my dog.
I took my first water taxi, ate my first (and second, third, fourth) lamb popsicle, tried hot yoga, ate a tonne of sushi, good pizza, laughed a lot, never climbed the grouse grind like I promised I wouldn't, trash talked some thugs on the sky-train, drank about a hundred Slurpee's, went to see some great music and most importantly developed and rekindled some really great friendships.
When I came to Vancouver to work in November, part of my decision was because I wanted to know if I belonged here or in Toronto. I'm not sure I am any closer to knowing where I belong so much as they are both great cities.
I just hope I will try as hard in Toronto to live my life to the fullest, savor all the city has to offer and finally learn to skate backwards.